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This is a new article-series, that has to do with my thoughts and feelings. Every now and then, I'll be writing down my thoughts of the day/week. This is the first 'episode' and I hope it's interesting enough for you to continue reading. These past few months, I had to think about what I wanted to do in the future. So many questions from my parents, my teachers, my friends, almost every person I talk to.. ''What do you want to do with your life?'' ''Have you decided what path you're going to follow?'' ''What's your main life goal?'' And so many other, similar questions that I still can't answer. I'm 17 and I don't know what to do with my life- I'm finishing school in June and am giving my final exams then. I chose to study Science at school and will choose what job I want to have next year. The thing is, I don't even know if I chose the right subject matter for me. How will I be able to choose a...

"I Love You" means that I accept you for the person that you are and I don't wish to change you into someone else. It means that I don't expect perfection from you, just as you expect it from me. It means that i'll love you and stand by you even through the worst of times. it means loving you when you are in bad mood and too tired to do things I want. It means loving you when you are down, not just when you're fun to be with. ' i love you ' means that i know your deepest secrets if you'll let me and don't judge you for them, asking in return only that you do not judge me for mine. It means that I care enough to fight for what we have and i love you enough to not to let go. it means thinking of you, dreaming of you, wanting and needing only you and knowing that you feel the same way for me. There of course is always more. But somethings are just harder to put in words.

  I love you what an easy thing to say easy when lacks of meaning of feeling I love you not words not a choice not a decision, but a spark a fire an intuition to flourish to nourish what are not words That spark cannot be ignored disobeyed for regret will charge for then you’ll know

Quick disclaimer : "I wrote this article to remind you how exceptional and enough you are right now. Define yourself." Our main goals in life should only be : to become better versions of ourselves and to define ourselves according to our goals and aspirations. We actually live in a world where we tend to let society, actual trends and people around us define ourselves. Speaking of the people around us, there are three types of people that we listen to the most in our lives : 1. DON'T LET YOUR PARENTS DEFINE YOU Most parents have a tendency to put their expectations on their children. I know that parents want the best for their children but some can put a lot of pressures on them, by wanting them to become what they couldn't become themselves in their lives. 2. DON'T LET YOUR FRIENDS DEFINE YOU This won't apply to you if your friends/acquaintances are real, good to you and push you to strive successfully in your life. If you ha...

Assalamualaikum... It’s been a while since I’ve update my blog , right?  I really miss express my feelings here. I think I’ve quite busy nowadays.  Actually lately I really confuse with my feelings, sad, overthinking and I don’t know how to say about this situation. Lately, I feel lost. I keep questioning myself, if I did something wrong or what I’m going to do if I don't get the job until new years. What I’m going to do?  I really really don’t know what to think. I’m really sad. I can’t even imagine how will I survive. My friends got job after they finished their internship, but me? Hmmm I felt left out.  I think because I do not grateful enough this entire time.  Actually, I really hurt as one of my good friend did not invite me to her e-day. I keep questioning why? Why did she not tell me about that day. I hate to overthink things like this. Maybe because we not close anymore. I have to accept the fact, that I’m the o...

Kerap juga aku bermonolog dengan diri aku "tak malu ke buat dosa?" "Alah dosa kecik je ni" "weh kalau sikit sikit lama lama jadi bukit" Ya Allah terus aku sedar dari alam nyata dan muka mak ayah aku terus terlintas di fikiran aku. Ya Allah betapa besarnya dosa aku nak dibandingkan dengan besarnya pengorbanan aku untuk kedua orang tua aku. Belum terlambat kah aku untuk mencari jalan benar? Untuk mencari keredaanMu ya Allah. Astagfirullalazim Macam ni lah aku dan aku juga korang semua pun sama. Bila nak buat sesuatu yang kita rasa tak boleh betulkan niat balik, kita buat sesuatu kerana Allah swt ingat mak ayah kita kalau kita buat sesuatu yang hina tak malu ke kita dengan mak ayah kita dan tak malu ke kedua orang tua kita di cemuh oleh masyrakat sekeliling dan tak malu kah kita pada diri sendiri. Allah swt dah menciptakan kita sebaik baik manusi. Cuma didunia ni Allah nak uji kita sebagai hambaNya dengan musibah dan dugaan. Mampukah kita untuk men...