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Assalamualaikum...

It’s been a while since I’ve update my blog , right? 
I really miss express my feelings here. I think I’ve quite busy nowadays. 

Actually lately I really confuse with my feelings, sad, overthinking and I don’t know how to say about this situation. Lately, I feel lost. I keep questioning myself, if I did something wrong or what I’m going to do if I don't get the job until new years. What I’m going to do? 

I really really don’t know what to think. I’m really sad. I can’t even imagine how will I survive. My friends got job after they finished their internship, but me? Hmmm I felt left out.  I think because I do not grateful enough this entire time. 

Actually, I really hurt as one of my good friend did not invite me to her e-day. I keep questioning why? Why did she not tell me about that day. I hate to overthink things like this. Maybe because we not close anymore. I have to accept the fact, that I’m the one who keep apart between us. Why I’m feeling this kind of instinct that she really not into me. I really hate this feeling. 

I think Allah want to show me how to feel if there is no one by my side. I’m so grateful that my family still take a good care of me and Ariff, he’s too nice for me I think. Honestly, I’m not ready yet. Not ready to falling in love again. I don’t want to hurt him anymore, cause he’s too good to me. There’s a lot of things that I can’t think right now. What I’m gonna do!! I hate this kind of things. Its too much 😭😭


Written by: 
From bottom of my heart ❤️ 

01:40 

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