Future plans..?

This is a new article-series, that has to do with my thoughts and feelings. Every now and then, I'll be writing down my thoughts of the day/week. This is the first 'episode' and I hope it's interesting enough for you to continue reading.

These past few months, I had to think about what I wanted to do in the future. So many questions from my parents, my teachers, my friends, almost every person I talk to..

''What do you want to do with your life?''

''Have you decided what path you're going to follow?''

''What's your main life goal?''

And so many other, similar questions that I still can't answer. I'm 17 and I don't know what to do with my life- I'm finishing school in June and am giving my final exams then. I chose to study Science at school and will choose what job I want to have next year. The thing is, I don't even know if I chose the right subject matter for me. How will I be able to choose a job next year?

Most people at my age here know exactly what they want to do and study really hard to achieve their goal and work somewhere with a good salary and live their life the way they want to. But, for me, it's not that simple. I don't have any future plans, I don't even know where I'll be in a few months. Will I be studying? Will I have given up? I don't know. I don't want to give up, but it's way too difficult. I feel like this is not the life I want to live- at least not under such circumstances. Maybe I'm kind of exaggerating right now, but I hope someone out there, reading this, is getting me and my feelings.

I just want to leave my town and live somewhere else, travel around the world and meet new people & cultures. But, the only way to do that is by having a job and money. Money... another very serious and important matter to live life in the best possible way. Not everyone has it, but those who do have surely made their dreams come true.

Maybe that's exactly my goal. Live life. I just don't want to end up like one of those people who go to work, come back home and do everything they're told. This isn't who I am. I want to do things my way and live without limits. There are so many people who have great abilities and accomplishments, but will never be able to make use of them, because they're not wealthy enough. What has our world come to? Why is money the only way to stay relevant and well-known?

This might be a completely different matter than my future plans, but I think it should be spoken about. Our generation has made so many talentless and unintelligent people famous. All because they're good looking and have many Instagram followers. What about someone's special skills? How will they be known for their excellent mind? But, nobody cares about that anymore. This new and modern society just wants us to have a perfect face and body and a good Instagram profile. Nothing else matters- your intelligence, your great mind, your skills.

So, with all that, I just want to remind myself that this is not how I want to live my life. Life is not about having a pretty face or a nice body. I mean, it feels nice to have either of those things, but that's not the purpose of life. You need to find what you came in this world for. And, trust me, it's surely not for a pretty face. Maybe for someone it's their partner or their friends. For others it's all those beautiful sights around the world or that adorable dog they saw down the street the other day. Life is all about the little things that make you happy and nostalgic. This is why we create so many beautiful memories with the people we love.

So, today's lesson was: Live the moment and don't worry about the future. It will come when it's supposed to. The only thing you have to worry about is this, exact moment. Are you proud of what you're doing?

Don't be so hard on yourself.